Yeah I know I swore that I wouldn't... but let's just try to be not depressing? Just not also happy... Yeah that's probably about right. I'll start with the good and work my way down to the bad?
Well for starters I'm planning on entering NaNoWriMo which means I should really be more concerned with how depressing Euria's life is and not mine... I will totally give it my all and hopefully I'll have a novel by the end of the month. If I'm lucky.
I'm sure I had happier news to say but I can't really remember. [I apologise for writing as if I'm talking it's what I do sometimes.] I suppose some happier news is I've been trying to talk to a friend for a while, on Forums. I PMd him ages ago but never heard back from him. But eventually he did reply and only commented on a couple of the things I mentioned in my PM. Even still I had asked him to tell me his AIM name and he did... But he was never even online. ~Siiiighs~
Anyway this had been bothering me for ages, but then he was coming online... At 5am in the morning for me [which I was totally not waiting up for!] But I suppose that's when it really started... Paranoia I guess, I wouldn't be angry if anyone called me paranoid cos I probably am. Anyway, I had this friend a while back, well two years ago, he used to Roleplay with me at night as he's American and couldn't get on when it was early for me, still it was fun. Then we just started talking, it was really great and I fell for him... Then he started to only come online at 5am [for me] and then he started only sending me one PM a day, even if we were both online at the same time, if he'd already sent a PM he didn't send another till the following day. I woke up to find his account deleted after a week of not hearing from him at all. So that would be one of the starts to this "Paranoia" so this friend of mine...
The new one, not the one from 2 years ago. I was scared I guess, I mean we barely talk anyway so I assume he probably didn't care that much, but still I really enjoyed talking with him when we did talk. The lack of being able to reach him made me fear I was losing him too.
However, yesterday I got to talk to him. I was really, really, really happy. I had been up watching TV with my mum until late but my laptop was still on, so I came back around 1am and finished off what I was doing and boy did I get shock when he messaged me a little after 2! He NEVER messaged me first! EVER. I really was so surprised but so happy to talk to him... Except it would seem it wasn't just him that came back, I felt a flood of emotions that I haven't really felt and now I'm at a loss.
My mind is playing tricks on me and I know it, but it doesn't help. These feelings... I just want to talk to him, once we start my whole day is better, I can't stop smiling, I'm giggling... I had all these feelings and reactions when I used to talk to "Him". I'm pretty sure I don't like this guy the way I liked "Him" but my mind is trying to tell me other wise x.x
This is CrymsenRose Signing off.
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